Passepartout arrived today and I found out from him that you had been doing quite poorly. I'd lecture on how even you need to take care of yourself, but it's hard when I know I may be partially to blame.
Sometimes I wonder if I was wrong to admit how I felt about you knowing there was a good chance I'd die or you'd find out that I'm not the good person you think I am. At least not completely.
But when I think that, I also think about the regrets we both could have had for saying and doing nothing. It seems like that debate about whether it is better to have loved and lost or not loved at all.
I hope there isn't a next time for something like that, but if there is, I'd rather be there to ease your pain.
After Passepartout arrives
Passepartout arrived today and I found out from him that you had been doing quite poorly. I'd lecture on how even you need to take care of yourself, but it's hard when I know I may be partially to blame.
Sometimes I wonder if I was wrong to admit how I felt about you knowing there was a good chance I'd die or you'd find out that I'm not the good person you think I am. At least not completely.
But when I think that, I also think about the regrets we both could have had for saying and doing nothing. It seems like that debate about whether it is better to have loved and lost or not loved at all.
I hope there isn't a next time for something like that, but if there is, I'd rather be there to ease your pain.
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